Corinne's Blog

I just got back from working my usual overnight shift at Target in Brooklyn Park. Today has ended differently from any other day I’ve worked since I was hired by Target. Today ended on a sort of bittersweet note.

Overall my experience at Target has been hard, and challenging, fun and positive…and if I was to be i any other position I’d have chosen to remain at Target as a Team member and I’d have wished to have had discovered it as a job sooner.

Even though as a job I know that it wasn’t somwhere where I always wanted to be…or that I was completely awake for all the time…I really enjoyed the people and the work I was capable to do. The pay was better than I’d expected.

It makes me wish I wasn’t moving to Scotland and that I hadn’t made up my mind to leave. I makes me want to wait till I have more stable ground before I jump so I don’t jump into quicksand.

Today I heard the bad news that the end of my conditional period at Target was none other than this next weekend on March 14th where they’ll either pay me for my time at Target or they’d be offering me a long term position there.

In light of the fact that I will be moving in April which is next month I was hoping that I’d have more of a chance to be able to save up more money for the next month that I am here.

Since I’ve already found a place to live in Scotland I have to worry about living expenses there…and figure out how I am going to pay for my three months there…before March’s end I must pay the 600 rent in british pounds…which is about 700$.

On top of that I’ll need to pay Ms. Rhonda the 700$ I owe her still in back rent and in my current rent for March.

I need money and I need more money quickly.
This is a terrible situation to be in because I also owe my school money and I owe Theta Chi still for my time spent there in the summer 2009.

Everything is coming to a rocky and puss filled pimple head when I thought that things were right about to get better.

I hope that I’ll have enough to survive this next month in one piece.

I really hope this whole thing doesn’t explode in my face or boil over into my chances of making any positive start in Scotland.

For now, all I can do is wait and pray.

I feel great because after weeks of being afraid to tell Ms.Rhonda I was leaving I actually got the guts to tell her that I was going.

She took it a lot better than I’d expected her to.

Life is often like that for me, I get afraid that someone is going to take something terribly and instead they take it reasonably well. While I’m dreading telling the person time goes by and I stress myself out.

I got the guts to tell my land lady and the only thing she asked me was ….’you’re moving there?’ Much like the response Ii received from everyone else [friends and family alike.] I don’t know why people don’t want me to leave yet when I’m here they’d care less if I was alive.

Jimmy for instance tells me that he doesn’t want me to go because he’d lose a friend. But I feel that he just wants me for my free time to watch his children.

Heidi and I are both getting back together again an we’ve been hanging out a lot more…she’s the one who got me into wearing makeup but she is accepting my leaving and she doesn’t care  if I leave or not because she knows life goes on.

Alex J and I have been hanging out more than ever but I feel that is because we are close in a could have been way. I really think Alex is a great guy and my moving will make me sad because I won’t have an opportunity to laugh and joke around with him. I really wish we’d hung out more in high school when we could have been. Alex jokes around and tells me all the bad things Scotland will brig me…trying to scare me into not going…it won’t work.

Ian Morris and I see each other and keep each other updated on the current events of each of our lives. I will miss his caring heart and the way he watches out for me and isn’t afraid to give me his opinion. I wish him the best of luck with his own social life….he deserves the best.

Scott my ex boyfriend and I hung out the other week and saw shutter island. It was really nice and I wish we’d have more time to become friends again.

The people from my church are very supportive of me as a family should be. Outside of church my life group has been behind me 100%. I know I will miss my church community especially because it seems to be growing every time I blink. Even though Mikey and I aren’t exactly close I will still miss him because I miss taking inspiration from his spirit as I see him share his musical talents with Aldrich, he has such a beautiful spirit and I wish more people could be like him.

The people who I used to feel I was close to at University haven’t reached out to hangout with me since I’ve left…so what’s the point of going out of my way to stay for them? They’ve moved on.’d

I still feel that if all these people cared that I’d have had a reason to stay.

But since they show no signs of changing I have all the freedom in the world to go.

God is on my side.

I’ve been trying to plan and put together the pieces of this puzzle as I go along…I’ve been trying to plan this but I feel that my hourglass is running low.

Great news though, I have found a place to stay while I’m in Scotland.

The first place I’d looks at had been the flat of a missionary family in nigeria…they wanted me to pay for the rent before I got the keys and got to see the place…I said no and I asked my eyes and ears (Craig) to go check out the residence on my behalf. It ended up turnign out to all be a scam against me being played out by some very good and cunning scam artists.

The second place is smaller and there are many more people involved so I know that the likelihood of this being an elaborate scam is slim to none. The flat is on Easter Road in Edinburgh and I’d be renting it for two and a half months while the previous owner did her study abroad work in portugal. She is 23 years old just about around my age…as are her three flatmates who have all added me on facebook. Because the girl is leaving to do stud abroad so soon she wanted me to prepay for all of the rent up front…and it was agreed that my boyfriend could have the opportunity if he should want to take it…to look at the property and prove it’s worth before any pent was spent on it. I feel that this is understandable…a total of 600 British pounds to be spent to a one F. Devine.

So I’m simply exstatic about this bounce back after what those scam artists did…a bounce back from something that set me back a couple of weeks into something that seems to be going ridiculously smooth considering how I feel that I’ll have just enough money to make it through with something in my pocket when I get to Scotland.

So apparently it is being posted all over the news and by the states air and pollution companies that the level of pollution currently in the atmosphere here in Minnesota is dangerous at this time of year to the point of deadly.

The news people are even trying to get people to stay inside their houses instead of spending long periods of time outside.

They say that the snow is melting because it is getting warmer and it is releasing toxins and that since it is warmer the clouds are keeping in the air because when the polluted air rises it recycles itself out again.

What are they telling us? If we breath the air for a long time we will die?

wow… They are advising the elderly and very young to not go outside today…

What about recess?!