Corinne's Blog

I remember there was a time that Craig and I used to be more like our facebook friends Stephanie and Jordan. There’s something about their interracial relationship and their interactions that remind me of what life used to be for Craig and I. I was looking at one of the facebook videos Stephanie had up that had been posted online by Jordan of Jordan time lapsing Stephanie drawing on yahoo in a yahoo fun date. It reminded me of when I used to have yahoo dates with Craig, the same conversation rhythm and cute flirty banter flashed across the screen as Craig and I used to have it.

Nowadays Craig and I have grown sick and tired of messenger systems and only use them when we absolutely need them. I would rather prefer to use Skype and call Craig while sharing my webcam. I can’t speak for Craig but I think he also likes using the webcams and voice more. This webcam voice thing has been different for both of us because I only got my computer a few months ago after Craig and I started recording our Podcast Distance No Object.

With Craig in Cambodia right now of vacation I am reminded of how big the void in my heart becomes when I can’t speak to him. I know how my life would be if I had no association with him whatsoever and I realize how if my life in this long distance state continues this way how I feel Craig and I will grow more and more apart from each other.

Maybe I think this because Craig and I lost our conversation rhythm and our cute Banter a long time ago.

Its definitely time for our relationship to refresh itself and have some kind of change, any kind of change would be good…seeing each other again would definitely be a start.

The next chapter in my novel chapter 14 that I’m writing is about reawakening a friendship and love that has been going on for a long time. Hopefully my inspiration will continue into the real world for refreshing my relationship with Craig when he get back home.

I know this will be an extremely hard thing for us to do. We both have our own lives right now. Craig has always had a life outside of me and since my deportation I am trying to develop a life for myself. With school beginning pretty soon I am afraid that Craig will become as he always has been during the school years, Distant at times…moody and always really busy. I think I’ll be busy myself but there will always be times where I need Craig where I am afraid I won’t have them because of his school schedule. This is his last year at University and I’m wishing him the best with it…even with me in his life.

Thank you Stephanie and Jordan for helping me remember what Craig and I used to be like and for inspiring me to try to find that fun again in my own relationship.

These last couple of months after I’ve gotten back from being deported have been an up hill climb for me.

I had a lot of decisions to make about where I wanted my life to start moving by now.

One of the things that I realized I needed to do in order to spark positive changes in my life would be to set achievable goals. A few months ago I established a list of short term goals I wanted to accomplish and I posted them on my blog:

http://www.pinker33.com/2010/05/18/my-new-routine/

The steps I’m taking right now are based solely on my accomplishing these goals.

The first goal I’m taking steps to accomplish was my goal to:

-Get a job away from my family.
Because of a fraud scheme I uncovered with my former employer I am no longer working with John Dickens and I am now working at Burroughs Elementary for the summer in their Minneapolis Kids program. It’s a wonderful steady job and I appreciate it everyday, I feel as if everyday I am on the show Kids say the darnedest things. It is located in South Minneapolis Minnesota near Edina which is a significant amount of space away from my family and a huge change from me just working next door to them.

The second goal I am trying to accomplish is figuring out what I wanted to do for school. I’ve decided that I’m going to give Nursing a major try and that I’m going to be applying to Minneapolis Community and Technical College I recently had an opportunity to look at their nursing program’s requirements and I feel that they are sufficient for me to complete school by 2012.

I am going to begin an assistant nursing class for it in August.

In deciding to pursue nursing I am also finding I can find a focus of study and a vocation in nursing which accomplishes that listed goal.

The third goal I am trying to accomplish is my

Getting Healthier goal which I find involves
-Eating Healthier
-Exercise
and
-Losing weight

To accomplish this goal I have decided to invest money in a Personal trainer named Von Gillette and with his help I am investing money into myself and my future.

Von is an experienced personal trainer and he looks the part completely. He’s really nice and already he’s kept in touch with me and we’ve met twice to decide what our game plan would be to get me down to a smaller size.

He knows I can do it and his believing in me makes me feel as if I can accomplish my goals.

Check him out at: http://www.vongillette.com/

With Von I have determined that I should only consume 2082 calories per day.

This is a great number to have and I’ve started being more conscientious of the foods I’ve been eating and their effect on my health, in turn I’m eating better and healthier.

I’ve begun using an online calorie journal:
http://www.everydayhealth.com/food-fitness/journal#/3

This is Von’s recommended Meal Plan that I’m going to start following.

1/2 Cup of Nuts = 400
Protein Drink = 100 Calories
Veggies = 30 calories
Meal 1 = 530 calories x 3 = 1590 calories
2 Snacks = 230 calories x 2 = 460 calories
Total Calories = 2050 calories (without a protein shake)

So far I’ve gotten good feedback from him.

I hope to blog about my progress in this journey with him these next few months and I hope the results show and that I can blog positively about my experiences.

I’m already sore from the little assessment Von did with me yesterday afternoon.

The fourth goal I’ve been forced to deal with is my

-not making Craig and major part of my life.

This goal is both a positive and a negative thing for me. With my new job my life has been revolving around better ways to get to and from work. I hope to be driving soon.
Honestly Craig and I haven’t spoken for over a week now and with his recent move I have no clue when we’ll be able to speak to each other again.

Today is his birthday and I wish him all the best today but after expecting to spend his birthday with him today is a bit of a disappointment for me when I think of him.

My time isn’t revolving around Craig but I’ve ceased to speak to him all together because my schedule is such that I’m missing him if he is ever on.

The fifth goal I’m still accomplishing is the work I’m doing on my novel.

I have made it to page 95 and now it is more than 56 thousand words…that’s 56,000 so It’s officially the size of a children’s or teen novel.

I’m not even halfway through my transcript so I’m hoping it will be really good and I know it will be long.

…
on a different note I got paid from my old job and I have two checks floating in the mail from the month I’ve been working at Minneapolis Kids so I’ll be able to get out of debt with people and businesses I owe…and buy new clothes!

I hope that all this progress will help me learn to love myself and learn to love the world around me and stop stressing so much.

My uncle Sean and I have been talking about what in fact would happen during a zombie apocalyse.

Starting with what areas would be the safest areas to go, who would you trust in times of need, and about what type of human would be the first to be eaten.

Thinking about the zombie apocalypse is something that I myself do when I’m bored.

The main rules of the apocalyse are to seclude yourself and stay away from others. This is hard because there are billions of people on the planet. While secluding ones self it is important to remain well stocked in the essentials you’ll need for survival.

Being:

-Weapons: To defend yourself against the rising army of undead
-Food: So you can keep your strength up
and
-Running water: So you don’t dry of dyhydration and thirst.

These three essentials are bound to run out if the people who are trained to make and run them become zombies.

Since we doubted that any military organization would be organized to quarantine the zombie situation as they did in 28 weeks later I feel that there would be little hope for survival afer you ran out of one of these three essential elements.

In thinking of who may be the first victims we analysed what traits surviors usually had…

-They were fit and could outrun their opponents
-They were smart and could outwit the undead with a series of elaborate traps and tricks.
-They were not wimpy, and could therefore make their first kill without hesitation and every zombie kill they needed to after that.

We analysed the expertise a person may need to have in order to outwit a zombie, in order to do this we had to consider that zombie’s objective and how they accomplished that goal.

-The zombie’s number 1 objective is to feed.
-They do not have indigestion because their primary organs have all failed.
-Every organ except their brain which is programed even with the zombie subject is dead to search out and devour all that are not undead like themselves.
-They force feed themselves until they have reached their objective of killing the person that they have been hunting
-They are likely not to have memories in their brain from previous experiences because that is not a part of the brain that is activated when they themselves become zombies. (therefore not at all like Shaun of the dead.)
-Once they have died and have become zombies they cannot feel pain and the only way to kill them would be a direct shot to the brain to destroy it along with the little active function that posess.

Sean and I concluded that the zombie is a hard foe to have because they can multiply their numbers to the hundreds in a number of hours.

We tried to think of what kind of person would be the first kind of person to go and came to two conclusions.

-First people who were obese and lazy with a lack of motivation to survive.

-2nd the elderly on the street who couldn’t outrun

-The poor who used public transportation.

-Those stuck in traffic jams trying to flee to the country.

-Those young naive children who don’t recognize tall tell signs of zombism.

In my uncle’s game plan he wants to stop at a grocery store then a gun shop. Or a grocery store then he’d head to the country.

But I said that the country would be a bad place to be because the zombie news wouldn’t spread there until late and they wouldn’t be prepared, plus the zombies would go there after they’d taken over the cities.

I thought I’D get to a grocery store then I’d head to sea, after running out of food I’d then find a deserted Island that has a lot of fruit that I could eat. Zombies have a heard time crossing waters so I’d be safe for awhile.

Then after my food supply ran out I’d head back to the city and hide in an old abandoned gun shop.

the cities would be emptying out of zombies because everyone would be heading to the country for the people hiding out there.

That’s where we left off in our first conversation. (Part 2 to come soon.)