Overall my experience at Target has been hard, and challenging, fun and positive…and if I was to be i any other position I’d have chosen to remain at Target as a Team member and I’d have wished to have had discovered it as a job sooner.

Even though as a job I know that it wasn’t somwhere where I always wanted to be…or that I was completely awake for all the time…I really enjoyed the people and the work I was capable to do. The pay was better than I’d expected.

It makes me wish I wasn’t moving to Scotland and that I hadn’t made up my mind to leave. I makes me want to wait till I have more stable ground before I jump so I don’t jump into quicksand.

Today I heard the bad news that the end of my conditional period at Target was none other than this next weekend on March 14th where they’ll either pay me for my time at Target or they’d be offering me a long term position there.

In light of the fact that I will be moving in April which is next month I was hoping that I’d have more of a chance to be able to save up more money for the next month that I am here.

Since I’ve already found a place to live in Scotland I have to worry about living expenses there…and figure out how I am going to pay for my three months there…before March’s end I must pay the 600 rent in british pounds…which is about 700$.

On top of that I’ll need to pay Ms. Rhonda the 700$ I owe her still in back rent and in my current rent for March.

I need money and I need more money quickly.
This is a terrible situation to be in because I also owe my school money and I owe Theta Chi still for my time spent there in the summer 2009.

Everything is coming to a rocky and puss filled pimple head when I thought that things were right about to get better.

I hope that I’ll have enough to survive this next month in one piece.

I really hope this whole thing doesn’t explode in my face or boil over into my chances of making any positive start in Scotland.

For now, all I can do is wait and pray.

She took it a lot better than I’d expected her to.

Life is often like that for me, I get afraid that someone is going to take something terribly and instead they take it reasonably well. While I’m dreading telling the person time goes by and I stress myself out.

I got the guts to tell my land lady and the only thing she asked me was ….’you’re moving there?’ Much like the response Ii received from everyone else [friends and family alike.] I don’t know why people don’t want me to leave yet when I’m here they’d care less if I was alive.

Jimmy for instance tells me that he doesn’t want me to go because he’d lose a friend. But I feel that he just wants me for my free time to watch his children.

Heidi and I are both getting back together again an we’ve been hanging out a lot more…she’s the one who got me into wearing makeup but she is accepting my leaving and she doesn’t care  if I leave or not because she knows life goes on.

Alex J and I have been hanging out more than ever but I feel that is because we are close in a could have been way. I really think Alex is a great guy and my moving will make me sad because I won’t have an opportunity to laugh and joke around with him. I really wish we’d hung out more in high school when we could have been. Alex jokes around and tells me all the bad things Scotland will brig me…trying to scare me into not going…it won’t work.

Ian Morris and I see each other and keep each other updated on the current events of each of our lives. I will miss his caring heart and the way he watches out for me and isn’t afraid to give me his opinion. I wish him the best of luck with his own social life….he deserves the best.

Scott my ex boyfriend and I hung out the other week and saw shutter island. It was really nice and I wish we’d have more time to become friends again.

The people from my church are very supportive of me as a family should be. Outside of church my life group has been behind me 100%. I know I will miss my church community especially because it seems to be growing every time I blink. Even though Mikey and I aren’t exactly close I will still miss him because I miss taking inspiration from his spirit as I see him share his musical talents with Aldrich, he has such a beautiful spirit and I wish more people could be like him.

The people who I used to feel I was close to at University haven’t reached out to hangout with me since I’ve left…so what’s the point of going out of my way to stay for them? They’ve moved on.’d

I still feel that if all these people cared that I’d have had a reason to stay.

But since they show no signs of changing I have all the freedom in the world to go.

God is on my side.

I’ve been trying to plan and put together the pieces of this puzzle as I go along…I’ve been trying to plan this but I feel that my hourglass is running low.

Great news though, I have found a place to stay while I’m in Scotland.

The first place I’d looks at had been the flat of a missionary family in nigeria…they wanted me to pay for the rent before I got the keys and got to see the place…I said no and I asked my eyes and ears (Craig) to go check out the residence on my behalf. It ended up turnign out to all be a scam against me being played out by some very good and cunning scam artists.

The second place is smaller and there are many more people involved so I know that the likelihood of this being an elaborate scam is slim to none. The flat is on Easter Road in Edinburgh and I’d be renting it for two and a half months while the previous owner did her study abroad work in portugal. She is 23 years old just about around my age…as are her three flatmates who have all added me on facebook. Because the girl is leaving to do stud abroad so soon she wanted me to prepay for all of the rent up front…and it was agreed that my boyfriend could have the opportunity if he should want to take it…to look at the property and prove it’s worth before any pent was spent on it. I feel that this is understandable…a total of 600 British pounds to be spent to a one F. Devine.

So I’m simply exstatic about this bounce back after what those scam artists did…a bounce back from something that set me back a couple of weeks into something that seems to be going ridiculously smooth considering how I feel that I’ll have just enough money to make it through with something in my pocket when I get to Scotland.

So apparently it is being posted all over the news and by the states air and pollution companies that the level of pollution currently in the atmosphere here in Minnesota is dangerous at this time of year to the point of deadly.

The news people are even trying to get people to stay inside their houses instead of spending long periods of time outside.

They say that the snow is melting because it is getting warmer and it is releasing toxins and that since it is warmer the clouds are keeping in the air because when the polluted air rises it recycles itself out again.

What are they telling us? If we breath the air for a long time we will die?

wow… They are advising the elderly and very young to not go outside today…

What about recess?!

5am: Wow the pace of work today has totally changed…We aren’t standing around waiting for the fixture team or begging Donny what we should do next…instead we are opening box after box of product and everyone from the overnight seems to be awake. For some strange reason though the team leader for food is here JOan and it’s as if she only knows MY name. She’s been calling “Corinne can you do this? Corinne can you do that? Corinne can you take this back, and clean up this spill…Corinne can you help these people work this out.” It is kind of annoying that she keeps calling on me because it’s not like I’m not already busy or slackinig off it’s as if my name is the only one she knows and she knows that I’ll get the job done.

It’s been so tiring this second part of my shift because my Target greatland is remodeling and getting in produce…and becoming a full grocery store “Super Target”. I’m not going to be around to enjoy the super target because I’ll be in Scotland on the 29th of April and leaving on the 27th of April and the super target is reopening up on the 15th of April. They call all the target produce Pfresh and this whole time I’ve been working at target has been leading up to pfresh being set up. It’s been a really fun experience and I’m happy to have had the opportunity to work here. I kind of wish I could continue working at Target because it is so nice to actually have a consistant job and a paycheck every week. I feel that it has been extremely hard trying to do my Scotland job search because it’s like no one is actually getting back to me about working.

I’m going to have to get a visa soon but I’m not sure which visa i’ll have to get. I recently recieved a letter from the people at Aberdeen University saying that they’d recieved my application to their university. Aberdeen wasn’t my first choice in university but they did have classes that pertained to what I wanted to study. I haven’t heard anything back from the other universities yet. The sad thing is that I can’t get my visa application as a student unless I get accepted into a university first.

I have to be in the United States in order to get my visa interview so I’m really nervous that I may need to head back to the United states after I get to Scotland in order to get my visa to live in Scotland. This next month is going to be crazy! Not only do I still have major Scotland planning to do but I also have just heard that because the remodel is almost over that they might be cutting my hours soon to next to nothing.

I’m afraid that my back will form a hump and I will begin to look like an old lady. I only have about 49 days till I’m in Scotland…wow the time is flying till that date. Hopefully I’ll have a comfortable bed to go home to bed I arrive there.

I hope to be a lot better to my body when I get to Scotland. Hopefully I’ll find a job there that is good to my body too. Nothing like this planogram job where I am completely exhausted and feeling like I’ve had a total workout at the end of the day.

but in a way… his opinion is like dirt to me because he doesn’t have the “right kind” of relationship.

I don’t know exactly what the right kind is… but I can feel that Eric’s is wrong.

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Nakomi keeps trying to get me into religious arguements with me…when he begins he never ends and as much as I want to defend my religious views I don’t want to go against what I believe is true…that God is not a God of Confusion and that no one in Christ should be one to argue…what am I to do when I know that GOD as an entity isn’t a HE…and that Woman are not inferior to men…and that Men are not supposed to be considered more important than woman…and that woman were made for man in God’s image just as much as woman are.

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I really want to use giant Target Brown lunch bags somewhere in my wedding…I don’t know where. There is something about their simplicity and the creative potential that they show that I’d really like to express on my special day.

I had a really big idea that I wanted to have brown with another color as part of my wedding…mainly because whenever I think of Craig I think of sophistication and Coffee…I was setting the bags up today during my first part of my shift at Target and they were exactly what I could imagine or in a gift bag or a candy station bag…since I want to have a candy
station I can totally see that happening.

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I also really want to use a lot of other things I see laying around at Target…like their candles by glad.
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I’m getting sorta of tired of all the complaining that is happening at my job at Target Greatland in Brooklyn Park.

My co-workers are constantly complaining about my boss Donny and the way he goes about doing business.

there are also complaints about the lack of hours when 40 hours a week has become our Norm.

It makes me sick, it is annoying and distracting and I feel no reason better but to complain here on my blog about the complainers.

The complainers stand around and they don’t do anything but complain…and as you listen to them and ‘keep working’ they keep standing around and not.

They don’t associate the working to getting their work done any sooner and getting to go home early.

I hope that soon they get a warning that they deserve and are sent home for not contributing.

now I must add it to my blog archives

Heeey heeeey heeeeey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn’t forget you
And so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moon beam
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided you’re the one I have decided
Who’s one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain’t that mister mister on the radio, stereo
The way you move ain’t fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don’t wanna miss a single thing you do tonight

Heeey heeeey heeeey

Just in time, I’m so glad you have a one track mind le me
You gave my life direction
A game show love connection, we can’t deny
I’m so obsessed
My heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you’re Madonna
And I’m always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain’t that mister mister on the radio, stereo
The way you move ain’t fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don’t wanna miss a single thing you do tonight

Well you can cut a rug
Watching you is the only drug I need
So gangster, I’m so thug
You’re the only one I’m dreaming of
You see I can be myself now finally
In fact there’s nothing I cant be
I want the world to see you’ll be with me

Hey soul sister, ain’t that mister mister on the radio, stereo
The way you move ain’t fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don’t wanna miss a single thing you do tonight
Hey soul sister, I don’t wanna miss a single thing you do tonight
Heeey heeeey heeeeey (tonight)
Heeey heeeey heeeeey (tonight)

yep

 

here comes the vegetable man
in the vegetable van
with the horn that’s
honking like a mariachi band
in the midle of the street people
gather around put a dollar in the can
ay wey, qu� onda?
tj cowboys hang around
sleeping on the side walk
with a burger king crown
never wake them up
vatos vergallos qu� onda guero?
qu� onda quero? mano blancos roll with crowbars sing rancheras on cheap guitars
abuelitas with plastic bags
walking to church with their spanish candles dirty
boracho says ‘qu� putas? andelay joto your popsicles melting’ run better run
da doo run run
in the midnight sun guero where you going qu� onda gureo? rampart boys with
loaded rifles guatemalan soccer ball
instant replays mango ladies vendedoras
at a bus stop sing a banda macho chorus
quo onda guero? a donde vayas?

The Journey

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice –
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do –
determined to save
the only life you could save.

~ Mary Oliver ~

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