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Here are a few things I:Corinne wish to do withYOU: Craigat some point in this lifetimes: BOLD= finished already Underlined Ones are New*

• Be your best friend.
• Get caught with you in the rain.
• Spend all day withyou doing nothing.
• Watch the sunset together
• dance with you in the rain.
• moonlit walks on the beach
• go on a carriage ride through central park.
• feel your heartbeat
• discuss current events in a heated debate
• give you space when you need it.
• do a crossword together
• eat ice cream in a winter night.
• go for a walk at dusk together.
• hold you and gaze into your eyes and realize how much you mean to me and tell you.
• blindfold and take you somewhere romantic.
• give you a back-rub just because…
• go roller/ice skating together.
• laugh at someone together.
• share a plate of your favorite’s meal.
• gently run my hand across your cheek and look into your eyes.
• talk to each other using only body language.
• have our first fight and make mad, torrid love, in the midst of all that passion.
• go on a fun vacation and bring back the kind of memories movies are made of. …Belfast…my last night wonderful!
• count thunder together during a thunderstorm.
• know you better than you know yourself.
• watch a bad movie together.
• plan a tree in our yard together.
• look over at you during a family party and have you know without me saying a word- that i love you.
• go on a road trip across America.
• go the museum together.
• hold you when you’re at your sadness and comfort you when you need when you need it the most.
• be the one you come to for that comfort and holding.
• made love to you passionately.
• be one with you.
• see our unborn children in your eyes.
• wipe away the days stresses and issues,with just one hug/kiss.
• grow old with you. – WIP

  What are the specific ways you prefer to show your love?
 >>>Craig:  Telling you a thousand different ways, with touch.. and once in a while with a loving gift I’ve given a lot of thought into.
and sharing my world with you.
 me:  good answer

 >>>me:  I show my love by showing someone that  I’m there. When you have my attentions I show a lot of my love. I constantly say it…and try to show it in intimate and infinite ways. I’m not good at giving gifts, but if I have the money or the time I’d put a lot of work into getting the right gift.
 Craig:  good answer.

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 What about your own childhood do you want to be different for our children? (if we have any)
 Craig:  Can you try and rephrase that as it doesn’t make any sense?
 me:  What do you want to change for your children based on what you experienced in your own childhood?
 >>>>Craig:  Oh ok… I’d want to give them the opportunity to do what they want but not force them into it.
 me:  in what ways?
 Craig:  let’s just say if a child has an interest in music, I’d get them an instrument they like and the tutoring they desired… but I wouldn’t force them to play the piano or anything else if they didn’t want to do it in the first place.
 me:  okay, good answer

>>>> me:  I’d try to find alternative ways to discipline my children, then taking away what they like and spanking them. I’d also try to give them the oppurtunity I was given plus a lot more. I’d try to always have money for them if they needed it, and I’d plan my money better for their future.

Craig:  ok…

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If I’m offered a terrific job which requires relocation to a city you dislike, what are your feelings about moving there with me?

>>>>Craig:  I’d probably move, up to a point.  If it’s close, I’d ask you to commute… even if that meant I had to take you there every morning.
>>>> me:   Yeah,  I’d move, I’d be flexible enough to change my workplace if it meant you’d be happy. If it meant that I’d have to lower my salary I’d have some problems

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What attracts you most?

>>>>Craig:  I guess I fall in the ‘personality’ category but I’m sure you’re thinking ‘yeah, sure…  just like every other guy… staring at my “personality”…’

>>> me:  I’d say Compatibility so Personality is fine.
because a person’s personality is what helps make a couple compatible. Craig:  yeah, without that a couple is just two people.

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 If I were in an accident and became paralyzed, how would that change your feelings for me or your behavior?
>>>> Craig:  I have no idea, and I never want to.  I couldn’t even think about how I’d react..But I guess I’d stick with you.  I’d look after you in your time of need.

 >>>>me:  I’d take care of you and ditto on the not wanting to ever have to.

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 How long does it usually take you to make a decision?
 Craig:  depends on what the decision is about…
if it was like… should I take you off life support, of course I’d take a nice long thought about it.  If it was, where do you want to eat? probably much less time will be spent thinking about it.
 me:  a usual decision…what to eat, what to do in a day
 
 >>>>Craig:  Not long at all.
Minute tops.
Most under 5 seconds though.
>>>> me:  k, I don’t like making decisions and it takes me a long time, unless I’ve had something I’d been wanting to do, if it was a case of pulling the plug, I’d go according to what I thought was right. And I think pulling the plug is wrong.

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  If we stay together, and start to live together what will the average dinner scene be like for a normal day?
 >>>Craig:  Informal, sit-down, both helping each other making the meal.  Candle at the table, lights down low and music in the background.
Well, maybe that in itself is a bit formal… Just what I pictured in my head.
 me:  okay

 >>>>me:  I like the concept that we’d both be helping each other make a meal. I’m not really happy about one person in a relationship being ‘the cook’. I think the responsibility cooking should change off and I could see the music and candle too…but not every night. I could also see myself eating in strange places…living room, bedroom, deck…basement…just anywhere that we happen to feel comfortable. Clean up would be manditory. But I’m always down for takeout/ ordering in…I really ‘go out’ to eat.    Craig:  Take-out is cool. :)

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 At what times of the day will you NOT want to have sex with me?
>>> >Craig:  Only when I’m hard at work.  But, I guess there are exceptions to the rule. 
>>>> me:  I don’t have an answer this one…other than if I’m not horny…but that’s rare and you never ask for it.                                                                         Craig:  If I was in that situation anyway… I guess… a touch in the right place. I see that face.
Well, I don’t.
I just know you’re making one when you read that.
Like…
 me:  lol
 Craig:  “he didn’t just say that?  no… no..”
“wait… yeah”

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If my mom became unable to care for herself where would she live?
  >>>Craig:  It would depend.  I’d think it’d be best to keep her in familiar surroundings with aid when required… but if the worst came to the worst… I’m not sure.  There are always homes but only as a last resort.
As i’m sure if I was in a situation where I couldn’t care after myself I wouldn’t want to be a burden on my children.
>>> me:  hmm
That question would also depend on if I was in the UK or here.
I would say: at home with the nurse I hired to take care of her. The nurse would  have been interviewed and hired by me…with constant check ups being done on her.

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 When do you believe it’s OK to cheat on your income tax, pad an expense account, or do some creative writing to get free cable TV or telephone calls?

 >>>Craig:  I’m more moral than that, I’d feel pretty bad about doing it.
 >>>me:  okay. good answer I would say…never

——————————————————————————————-  If we were ever to get hitched what is your perception of the role of “Husband”? “Wife”?
>>> Craig:  Just two people in for a rollercoaster ride.  I don’t like the concept that the titles would give us more roles than we would have already embarked on with our relationship.
 me:  wow. Brownie Points!
 Craig:  :D
  >>>me:  I think both the husband and wife should do an equal role in housework and getting money. But I think the mother has more responsibilities in raising children then a man does. If we were to have kids…would you be willing to change your work schedule to allow ‘days off’ for me to work and you to stay home?
 
 Craig:  yeah, totally.  I’d also feel inclined to spend more time with the kids too as I’d want to be an active part of their life.  (more than my own ever was… always working.)
 me:  yeah

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 If we have to tighten “the budget”, what expenditures are you willing to give up?
 Craig:  mostly anything.  I’m not sure to be honest.
 me:  I guess we’d need to know what we are spending money on
 Craig:  Any extras in life, DVDs,  WoW.. anything we don’t need for communication or work… fine.
 me:  I’d say: eating out..I’d make more home meals
 Craig:  Basically, anything that’s not a necessity.

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Do we ever act too old? What is one thing you’ve wanted to DO and a Teen that you haven’t ?
 >>>Craig:  I’ve always acted over my age.
Actually PARTY.  Do all the daring stuff.  Sheesh, enjoy myself.
>>> me:  that’s what I wanted to say…club and not feel weird…and “go out with the girlfriends” I’ve never really had friends to “go out with”
I also have an Old soul.
  Craig:  yeah, you’ve said that a few times.

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 Are you wondering why I’m asking you all these questions?
 Craig:  slightly.  but I was keeping my interest to myself.
Do share.
 me:  You never share your opinions on things without prompting
and I wanted to know some standard things that are good to know when in a relationship that a person doesn’t see an end to. Would you like me to stop? Craig:  soon, as I’m getting tired and have to be up early tomorrow for uni.
 me:  okay

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  What bugs you about my personality?
 Craig:  There is one little thing… the fact that sometimes you just can’t wait a while with things.  You know what I mean.
 >>>me:  I think for the future…but I want it now
yeah…I think it’s because I’m really ambitious and impatient
I want to be ‘happy’ now because I’ve gone through so much crap that I feel I deserve better now.
 Craig:  i’ve gotcha
>>>  me:  For example: I really hope your dad gets those 2 whte apts…so you can move into one and invite me to ‘move in’ with you to fill your empty rooms…hopefully this summer…so we can live together again…(not as cramped and messy) so we can “be together” because I really feel like now that I’ve found you I don’t want to go another year without having you for myself. I know that moving in with someone is a huge commitment…but I want to live “the married life I hope we will one day have”…ASAP
 Craig:  and I want you here… by my side.  I want you here so much.
  me:  but do you understand how my mind works? I leap WAY FAR ahead before I way the pros and cons of the situation.I look at pros and not cons,  what do you think I should do about that?
  Craig:  There’s a reason they’re called hopes and dreams and not hopes and fears you know.. Unless there’s a real change going to happen, just think of the pros.
  me:  okay…like in our relationship…when nothing happens I always assume something is wrong. when nothing ‘may be’ happening and we’ve just hit a plateau.

Craig:  I guess.. Nothing’s wrong.  Nor do I ever imagine it being, and if there was something… I’d tell you. 

  me: Thanks.

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me:  did you get upset when I hung up earlier to get on the computer?
 Craig:  yes, as you’ll hear on your voicemail.
I called literally 10 seconds after you hung up.
 me:  why?
I told you where I was going
 Craig:  because it made me upset.
yeah, but it was the way you conducted it.  it wasn’t nice.
 me:  sorry
what is the proper way for me to get off the phone with you?
 Craig:  I thought you’d have it down by now.  But definitely not short and abrubtly.  that’s extremely faux-pas
 Sent at 6:44 PM on Sunday
 me:  faux-pas?
wiki-ing
 Craig:  # A faux pas (, plural: faux pas ) is a violation of accepted, although unwritten, social rules. Faux pas vary widely from culture to culture and …
 me:  so I broke a social rule hanging up on you after saying where I was going.
?
 Craig:  no, just just did it abrubtly, after me saying… sorry, almost yelling.. “NO. DON’T GO I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.”
then yeah, faux pas
 me:  I didn’t hear the “no don’t go”
wat did you ant t talk to me about?
 Craig:  I don’t even know.. but it was just the way you hung up.  It wasn’t nice.
Anyway, it’s getting late… I’ve gotta head off and get some sleep.

Tonight Craig and I went to the movie theatre and watch The Spirit…I really enjoyed it as I enjoy all films. It was nothing that I was expecting but the movie was so vague in it’s advertisements that I wasn’t really expecting anything but the effects I saw in Sin City with Bruce Willis. Craig says that it wasn’t what he expected and that he felt it was missing something. In my opinion if I movie does what it sets out to do for the hour or two that you sit in front of it watching, without making you fall asleep or walk out… it is doing it’s job well. After we went to the movie theatre I convince Craig to take me to another bar. He ended up getting me a white wine and I drank it faster than I thought I could.

We had a nice conversation on the way home in which I asked Craig if I was a sort of rebellion to him with his family. Craig said that I wasn’t a rebellion but I think that he might not be telling a whole truth considering how I have all the different aspects of a rebellion…because in Scotland Craig is surrounded by many hot white super model looking woman, and he’s really HOT in my eyes (especially when he wears a well fitting pair of pants[which I am proud I got on him tonight] but that’s beside the point)

I am a rebellion in Craig’s Scottish world maybe because:

I’m a girlfriend… not a biker chick as Craig pointed out and really nice and kind but I’m someone who may or may not become part of “the family” one day…and that’s kind of threatening

I’m poor when Craig is very well off.

I’m Black (even though I would say my skin color is somewhat of a mocha and that would affect how people looked at the McCreath family racially for the rest of time)

I’m American …meaning that in the future one or both of us will have to be moving and changing the natural course if we were to never meet each other of our own personal countries populations. (Craig says that Canada is looking for more immigrants)

And also the non-conventional way that Craig and I met…through a friend (Sean McKay) on The LPE…if you don’t know what the LPE is than you need to do some research.

I think Craig gave me a good enough answer to all my questions about my being a REBELLION and I think I asked them in the first place because ….now I realize at the difficulty of my typing that I am a little tipsy…not drunk but not fully here but I think it’s important that I got my concerns out…and I think it’s important that I make a record that this conversation happened and I want to ask whoever may read this…do you think it was RIGHT for me to ask?

Anyway;

As we walked back from the Cinema before we went to the Bar/Pub Craig and I also talked about Firsts, meaning: the firsts we’ve had in our relationship. I brought it up because as I was in the bathroom after the movie I realized that that movie would be Craig and my first movie in a theatre/Cinema ever!. I think it’s important that I keep track of them just for fun so I can keep a record of fun anniverseries later:

So here is my current list of Firsts that I would like to keep track of.

When we first (chatted with) each other: July 22nd 2003 when Craig and I were 14 it was Craig’s birthday and he joined the LPE which I Corinne under the alias Pinker33 had joined in January of the same year.

First Time We (Met) each other: Monday December 15th 2008 at Edinburgh international airport gate…um 19?

First Hug:Monday December 15th 2008 in the terminal…Corinne asked: Can i hug you now? Craig: Of Course!

First Kiss: In Claire’s bed December 16th 2008 Corinne was really cold sleeping on the ground in the bed that was made for her so she climbed into bed with Craig and one thing led to another and they kissed.

First Hello: Physically at the terminal December 15th 2008 mentally July 22 2003

First Phone Call: Craig and Corinne used Jajah for a year before he got a local Skype phone number early 2006 we thinks…

First Date: Technically Craig took me uptown for the first time to see some sites 16th or 17th of December and we met up with his friend Fitz after awhile and we rode some amusement rides..the big wheel and the swing…but without anyone…um, not sure yet.

First-Time Sex: Ask and I may or may not tell…if we even HAVE.

First Talk: On the phone: (I forget and will have to look up but I remember freaking out because of Sean and Craig’s accents.) Online: July 22nd 2003 In person: December 15 2008

First Time We considered being MORE THAN  just friends?A particular conversation which I have a copy of on my computer somewhere.

First Morning: Together: Dec 16th 2008 But Corinne would say: First real morning was December 18th because Corinne and Craig woke up together…in Dundee

I Love You?: Election Day November 4 2008!

First We: Way during that LPE days when Craig and I were planning a huge LPE get together (that never happened).

First Fight: Fight? Does Corinne Yelling and Craig not saying anything back count? No, than in that case…we haven’t had one…Corinne gets upset with Craig but they don’t talk for awhile then Corinne forgives Craig and Craig apologies …sometimes.

First Trip: Up to Dundee…that was definitely December 18th because Craig had a big final that day in Law and he was popping caffeine pills left and right and the final was at 2 but Craig thought it was earlier and Corinne Forced Craig to sleep…that is what Corinne would say was the best sleep that they’ve had together…and the official “first sleep” she would say was REAL…..or from the airport to the City Centre in the Double Decker bus on December 15th…Corinne knew right away that she and Craig would get along like normal even though she was UBBER NERVOUS! OR…ELIE!

First Grocery Shop: Tescos…not sure, but it was in Dundee there have been many more since then. First By Craig : 2 bottles of Irn Bru and Chips(Crisps) and Caramel Shortbread.

First Control: Control? What does this mean? Well I’d say it was Corinne first and then Craig slowly took over when he became more confortable…but in general when Craig began holding Corinne’s hand in crowds…he took over as FULL LEAD.

The Future? Definitely it was Corinne nagging and Definitely during the time of ‘the phone calls’ or maybe the LPE~?

First Notice: Notice? What kind?

First Doctor Visit:

Caring Together

Your Commitment: Halloween  2008…Corinne and Craig decided to MAKE IT WORK.

First time meeting his Parents: December 15th 2008 after a pleasant walk from the city centre…with ALL Corinne’s luggage Craig’s mom appeared at the top of the stairs and Craig’s dad came down to help with luggage Corinne shook hand with Ron and hugged Sheona

First time meeting her Parents:

First SERIOUS talk: way too many to count…I think it was the time that Corinne realized Craig was her ONLY Bestfriend.

First holiday together: Christmas 2008

2nd Holiday together: Boxing Day 2008

3rd Holiday together: New Years 2008/2009

First “Yes”:

Holding Hands: I remember we tried it in a public place with fear of seeing someone we knew and it stuck from then on…when Craig began to expect it in every walk…he even begs and asks for it now. Corinne: True?

Craig: Maybe.

Drunken make-out sessions: Not to happen yet (edited: January 6th, 2009)”just got plastered…liked the happy part didn’t like the sick part. Will not drink Ever again! will drink in moderation!”

Big Fight: 6/12/2009

Romance Classes where to go next? A natural progression.(Read that Site for more…)

Craig went to bed while he was online with me because he was utterly exhausted and I knew it was all my fault. I’m letting him sleep and I hope the interwebs will let me on long enough so I can say good morning when he wakes. While he slept though I checked out somethings that I hadn’t in awhile. I told myself that I’d start Plurking again since I have an account and all of a sudden a lot more fans. I’d read most of Craig’s Plurks and I was curious of how much he mentioned me in other places. So I went and checked out Twitter. It was my surprise when I was only mentioned as ‘the girlfriend’ I’m not sure I’m happy about that or kinda numb. should I be in a good mood that Craig doesn’t want to type my name and would rather type something that takes a lot more effort? Am I upset that I’m only mentioned when he’s tired or when he’s talking about average things that a girlfriend would do?….no no! not at all. I’m not exactly sure why I feel I need to write something abotu being ‘the girlfriend’. I guess I’m happy I have the title but I know that it’s a perfect example to the vagueness that Craig has when he’s online. I love it but at the same time I want to just have him come out and say what is actually on his mind and not water it down. There’s one Twitter that made me think about my always nagging Craig about being vague: he says: that he just wants to pick up a mic and say what’s on his mind. And it made me think.

I keep wanting to pick up the mic. I just want to talk, keep talking, and get past all those problems I have with not talking all the time. 7:25 PM Nov 19th from web

Maybe I’m being to hard on him.

I guess I’m just trying to say that I’m kind of tired of having to life up to the girl and the awesome and I kinda just wanna be just Corinne.

Corinne did this…

Corinne and I were talking and this happened….

I feel that I can mention Craig and type his name with no problems when Craig can only say : I was talking to the bringer of awesome. I hope when Monday pulls around I can live up to the expectations Craig has for me as the girl of awesome…and I hope there will be a whole lot more of the two of us together posted up in the near future. We’ll see.

Till then ‘the girlfriend’ has homework to do and Craig to sleep watch (not in a creepy stocker way…well, kinda sorta) I for sure like Craig much better when he’s awake and smiling and not under covers…unless you know, I’m under the covers with him.