This Girl Can Sew…

I forgot what count I’m at for featured Websites of the week…

so I’d like to say that this is featured website of the week…_____

I was looking around for pictures of Judy Jetson for my History of Halloween Blog when I came across a very pretty dress and I clicked on the picture. I was taken to the Blog of a woman who is using patterns she sees in fashion magazines like vogue to create her own wardrobe. This girl then models the clothing she’s made and blogs about how she made it what he problems were and how a person can do the same thing back home.

Very Praire Posing in a vest she made

Very Praire Posing in a vest she made

I particularly like this website because it reminds me of the old fashioned values people used to have…where woman would make their own clothing and a mother would present her daughter with a prom dress or a new blouse. A real timeless feel that I never received from my mother or grandmother because they aren’t the type to knit or sew…they are rather the type to buy you new clothing or pass it down to you.

I feel that when I get older I’d like to be the kind of woman who has the skills to make my own clothing as this woman does…I wish I could hire her as my personal tailor so she could make dresses for my body that could fit me and look as nice on me as they do her.

I can really see where she is coming from for what she thinks is beautiful I lOVE HER STYLE!

The Blog I am Featuring is Called Very Praire:

Click on the Picture to get to the Site

Click on the Picture to get to the Site

It is owned by a young woman who I have yet to learn the name of… who started the blog in 2006. She goes by the alias Very Prairie…she poses for most of her own work and she is very beautiful check out her site you’ll be amazed at what she can do!

My History of Halloween

So it is almost October which will bring with it colder weather, more leaves and Halloween!

Personally I never celebrated Halloween when I was a child because it was against what my parent’s taught me to believe. To some people Halloween is just a day during the year that their children dress up in costumes and go door to door asking for candy in exchange for being targeted as a house to be pranked.To other families it is considered something much darker.

Growing up I was raised that Halloween was bad because it was a time when people would do witchcraft and worship the devil and demons and other evils in the world. Some children growing up with me thought that I was being brainwashed with a bad ideal but I was a obedient child to my parents and I never celebrated until I was 17.

I personally wondered sometimes if my parents didn’t want to celebrate Halloween because they had so many kids that they’d have to take out trick or treating or because they didn’t and couldn’t afford to make 6 kids Halloween costumes every year. I remember as a child having a lot of candy simply given to me around Halloween time because it was cheap, and my parents didn’t want me and my siblings to be left out.

There was one Halloween were I remember my father had put out a boombox and set up speakers on our front porch to blast “don’t want no monsters in my house tonight” a song written by a Christian Singer named Carman about demons and monsters.

On Halloween my siblings and I would skip school and remain at home…we said it was for religious reasons. I was really confused when kids at my own church would come to me and ask me how my trick or treating went…I knew a select amount of other families whose children grew up not celebrating Halloween but most of those families were against the idea of their children eating a lot of candy one day a year.

It was really interesting through the years my different experiences with Halloween it made me feel like the awkward kid…the one who could never relate. I was never invited to Halloween parties and I’ve never gone trick or treating.

When I got to the age where I began questioning my personal belief in Halloween I was too old for it to be acceptable for me to go door to door to trick or treat. All of my friends began saying that trick or treating was for babies and I felt that I’d missed out.

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My understanding of how different age groups celebrate Halloween is this:

From Baby to toddler your parents buy you a cute and silly looking costume for them to put on you all of Halloween for people to ooww and aah over you.

When you become old enough to pick your own costume (out of a select few your mom or dad has deemed appropriate) you are also old enough to go trick or treating. You go trick or treating with your parents at this age and often the whole family will have a theme or some sort of matching costumes.

When you are a bit older I’m thinking 7-11 you get together with your school friends and you all go out in a group trick or treating around the neighborhood the costume you pick is probably of the cartoons and superhero comic book characters that you enjoy watching. (Power Rangers, Pokemon, Superman, Spider man, Disney Princesses..etc) When you go out to trick or treat you think you are alone fully but there is always a parent tailing you in a car or a few houses down the street from you hiding behind bushes and trees to make you feel like you are alone. You go back to one of your friends houses and count, sort and exchange your candy.

From ages 12-15 you either question if it is alright to still trick or treat and do it anyway picking your own costume, or making your own costume, or buying your own costume with allowance money. You head out either with a group of friend trick or treating and having a blast or you head to someone’s house for your first taste of a costumed Halloween party. Some of the luck ones go and attend a haunted house that is age appropriate that is parent chaperoned. Some kids stay home and hand out candy

from 16-17 you question the trick or treating and decide that you’d just like to go and buy some candy and maybe go over to a friend’s house and watch scary movies. You may not even dress in costume but it is likely that you do..and strangely enough the female costumes are getting a little less innocent and the male costumes aren’t as tame anymore.Some high school theatre clubs might have their opening night of a show on halloween and you may have the pit orchestra dress up or have the cast go out trick or caroling after the show the tunes etc. or a kid could stay home and hand out candy.

from 18-20 Trick or treating is for kids and unless you are taking your siblings or young cousins out you probably aren’t getting candy from anywhere but close friends. The costumes are a competition for who can dress the sluttiest and the punch at the costume parties may or may not be spiked depending on your crowd. You may still have a scary movie night or you might be putting on a haunted house at your local college campus in which you try to create as much gross guts and gore as you can to scare people. You are able to go to amusement parks and 18+ haunted houses or maybe a darker night club scene were you enter a costume competition for the grand prize of  a 300$ gift card somewhere. Or you could take over for your parents and watch your younger siblings and hand out candy.

At 21-25 Partying and getting drunk for Halloween is appropriate …maybe hooking up with the hot slutty dressed girl in the corner is the girl’s goal or scoring the hope of a future date is the girls. You may no longer celebrate and you might just stay home and watch a sci-fi marathon or you may still be busy with work. There is always handing out candy.

I’m not sure what it might be like when people get older but I assume alcohol and parties may be involved where people try to out scare other people with their cool special party effects. People might be lucky enough to have kids that they can dress up and take trick or treating…they could be chaperoning and spying. Also handing out candy.

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When I was eighteen  I was working at a place called Bobby and Steve’s auto shop when I was invited to attend a Halloween party I at first had the feeling that I wanted to decline but being older and to the age that I could make up my own mind on if I wanted to celebrate Halloween I decided to accept the invitation. I had only known a few things about what it was like to celebrate Halloween and one of them was that the costumes for girls were slutty as they got older. I wanted to go as a nurse but my mother and I decided to make it a sexy nurse to spruce it up a bit.

I was surprised that my mother was being so supportive of my decision to celebrate since she’d raised me to not celebrate. But I now know that it was due to the fact that during that time my parents had been separated, their divorce was still in the beginning of its now finished stages. My father was trying to get back at my mother through my little sister . He allowed my Little sister Cynthia to dress up for Halloween to get at my mother who was against Halloween. Instead of being upset and not allowing my little sister to celebrate instead my mother let her and also that year let me.

I went to the party that my coworker was putting on and I felt a little out of place. The crowd I was with was much older and the woman I was around were much more experienced in dressing ‘sexy’ for Halloween. I felt like I was a semi-sexy conservative nurse in a crowd of sexy ones. It was hard to explain what I was when my coworkers would ask me why I was wearing the scrubs and the lingerie top.

I remember that my coworkers who were my same age were drinking and I was surprised when I was offered a beer which I turned down…I was underage and my coworkers knew it…why were they offering me drinks? I remember that at that party there was a lot of playing ten cup, and that was my first time ever being introduced to the game. I didn’t drink but a threw for the guys a bit and I tried to pretend that I was used to being at a lot of parties…which I hadn’t been.

I was kind of scared but I found that I had to most fun on the dance floor with the DJ…when the floor was empty most of the night the DJ would dance with me. Now that I think about it he was flirting and trying to hit on me the entire time. I remember also that my coworkers were being strange around me and I discovered why because the next day I was fired from the position under the accusation that I’d stolen money.

After that I didn’t care much about Halloween because I felt that it was only a holiday for woman to act stupid and dress slutty and for men to get drunk and act stupid. I spent my 18th Halloween at home watching TV and I also went  to a movie and shopping with my mom in Edina. I saw a group of my high school friends all dressed up and going to a party while I sat at a corner stop light on my way to AMC…I longed to be with them in my heart a little.

My age 19 Halloween wasn’t going to be very special I spent it in my dorm room. I watched as all the other people in Drew dressed up and headed out to their respective parties and I watched as all the hot men got drunk and hooped and hollered down the hallways all night. I opted not to go to the Hamline Haunted house in Manor because I felt that I’d rather stay in my dorm room and watch wedding shows. I did lend one of my buckets to Emily my roommate so that she could make some fake blood to pour all over her room and her prom dress for the haunted house that she was a part of. While I was watching wedding shows i decided it would be nice to call Craig and see how he was doing. Craig at that point had already been deemed by best friend we talked almost every other day and I could go to him with anything!

It was in that conversation that Halloween night that I ended up bringing up a code that I had created a while back in which I had asked Craig if he could ever consider me as more than ‘JUST A FRIEND’. At that point I knew Craig liked me…I’d known ever since that Code night (which I think had been a little while earlier) … Craig and I had become so nervous with each other after having admitted that we liked each other that we had gone into a strange happy time where we talked ‘more’ but, we talk about the same stuff that we always had as ‘just friends’. Craig and My liking each other was deemed a small problem that we didn’t bring up. We didn’t bring it up because we thought that a long distance relationship would never work for us, we knew that if we tried something more our relationship would never be the same…but we both realized that our friendship had been a relationship for 4 or 5 years by then and that going deeper may be the only way we would ever feel good about our futures together. We could remain friends forever and wonder ‘what if’ or we could give it a try and make it official…so, instead of just acknowledging our crushes for each other we skipped the whole dating phase and we decided to become boyfriend and girlfriend that Halloween night over the phone.

Dating for us was not only impossible and extremely hard but it was also useless…dating is a time when a couple gets to know each other Craig and I at that point had no secrets, we were the closest of friends and we’d been close for years, it just seemed to me to be a step that made perfect sense…the love was there and the longing for more was there the getting to know each other phase was done and there wasn’t anyone else for either of us.

So Halloween 2008 became when I began being Craig McCreath’s girlfriend. This is funny because we had been listed as engaged on Facebook for almost a year and a half by then after high school and a certain rumor Ashley Thayer began that I ran with. I remember to this day how happy I was with Craig on that Halloween and how I didn’t mind the costumes and the candy people had…I was simply just happy to be someone’s girlfriend.

It will be almost a year to that date coming up next month and I not only want to make this next Halloween special because I’m giving it a try again but I am also happy to be celebrating my 1 year anniversary with Craig as my boyfriend. Craig and I have been through a lot his past year…(moves, deaths, births, arguments, visits, breakups and makeups etc.)…an awful amount of change.

I want to make this Halloween extra special because it is my anniversary and it falls on a Saturday/Sunday for Craig and I in different parts of the world. I’d totally kill to see Craig on October 30th because I haven’t seen him physically for a long time. As for Halloween now that I am 20 years old I feel that I have missed out of my time to trick or treat until  I have children of my own..so I’m thinking of just dressing up and I have a hope deep inside that I will be invited to some Halloween party to celebrate the holiday for my 2nd time ever…hopefully with me now drinking I’ll be able to fit in better. It would be nice to have Craig around so if I decide to live by the tradition and stereotype of my age group and if I do decide to dress slutty I’ll have someone to dress slutty for…sadly Halloween is not a Holiday that gets its own school day or week off.

To make up for lost years I have decided to make a promise to myself to dress up every Halloween  until  have kids of my own to dress up.

This Year I’d like to dress as Judy Jetson because I love the color Pink and I’ve found some really cute costume options I could try to copy.

Judy Jetson

Judy Jetson

One involves a Vintage looking dress that looks like Judy’s I could try to copy and make myself:

Okay....I have no explanation for this dress. I couldnt resist but really..I do love it! It totally reminds me of Judy from The Jetsons  Lets see, it has shoulder pads but they can always be removed. Its really bubblegum pink with a zipper up the back.  Measurements: Fits like a modern size 6 regardless of its actual size. Bust 34-36, Waist aprox 28 waist is sort of stretchy.  Condition: Very Good, small stain Im pretty sure I will be ably to get it out.  *Actual colors may vary from those shown on your screen. Much more hot pink/bubblegum like in person.

Okay....I have no explanation for this dress. I couldn't resist but really..I do love it! It totally reminds me of Judy from "The Jetsons" Let's see, it has shoulder pads but they can always be removed. It's really bubblegum pink with a zipper up the back. Measurements: Fits like a modern size 6 regardless of it's actual size. Bust 34-36", Waist aprox 28" waist is sort of stretchy. Condition: Very Good, small stain I'm pretty sure I will be ably to get it out. *Actual colors may vary from those shown on your screen. Much more hot pink/bubblegum like in person. (Click on the picture for more pictures)

Another looking I could go for is the hippy  flower power Judy jetson look:

It is made of a pink polyester fabric and says to dry clean or hand wash only. The dress comes with a matching sash as well.  Measurements: Bust 36, Waist 27, Length taken from top of shoulder aprox 50

It is made of a pink polyester fabric and says to dry clean or hand wash only. The dress comes with a matching sash as well. Measurements: Bust 36", Waist 27", Length taken from top of shoulder aprox 50"

Or I could try a sexy Judy Look (Which I don’t think is me at all!)

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Or I can Try a plain and simple innocent Judy:

Judy w/ Red Skirt

Judy w/ Red Skirt

Or I could be Daring and copy one and make it out of pink duct tape

Or I could be Daring and copy one and make it out of pink duct tape

All very good options though..I’ll think about it. I’m getting way ahead of myself it isn’t even October yet!

I wonder what it would be like if CRAIG surprised me by showing up on Halloween all dressed up as a knight in shining armor come to take me back to Scotland with me…;D

THe Knight mug

Knight on Horseback lifesize

Knight on Horseback lifesize

I like this...

I like this...

THe Knight mug

Honesty Meme

Do this without lying… Can you fill this out without lying? You’ve been tagged, so now you need to answer all the questions HONESTLY. Have fun! :)

1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth? Kool aid and bobby pins

2.Where was your facebook profile picture taken? In front of Sebastian Joes in Uptown Minneapolis after I had a successful job interview for a job I have since left

3.Can you play Guitar Hero? I spent all my free time in Scotland mastering Craig’s guitar hero…it was awesome!

4.Name someone who made you laugh today? Craig (in an email)

5.How late did you stay up last night and why? last night is this night and it is currently 2:44am so I’m assuming till 3am

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you? If I had money…Scotland with my current situation anywhere but home…but nice!

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? YES! So fun! New years omg that was amazing! (Love you Craig!)

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you? Not sure I just moved back home

9. Do you believe ex’s can be friends? Kinda.

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?I like it but I wish i could tell the 23 (or something) flavors 1 from the others.

11. When was the last time you cried really hard? Last Sunday when Brian and Janel Goff semi fired me

12. Who took your profile picture? me.

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of? person? um my mother…picture in general cat

14. Was yesterday better than today?today is just beginning

15. Can you live a day without TV? yes.but not for long…I wouldn’t die without it

16. Are you upset about anything? not now

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? definitely w people & God

18. Are you a bad influence? It  depends on what you consider bad

19. Night out or night in? Depends on my mood and what I could fill my time with

20. What items could you not go without during the day? my computer and a bra

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Decent Dosh,yesterday afternoon@ hcmc

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?TEXT? I have no cellphone but email…probably one from Craig talking about some voicemail…

23. How do you feel about your life right now? I pray that one day I can get more of what I want out of it, I’m not happy with where it is going

24. Do you hate anyone? no but I have some problems with some people

25. If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find? messages from everyone except my boyfriend and family

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass? I have Ibuprofen in my system would that turn up?

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before? no never

28. What song is stuck in your head? Little ol me by Carman

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be? CRAIG!…hopefully no one hears him and he’s here to stay the night!

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Call people for job interviews

32. Do you think too much or too little? too little?…but I think it is hard to think too much

33. Do you smile a lot? I used to not really now.

Blogging Therapy

Two years ago during that last time that I lived at home with my mother and siblings, it used to be that every week we would be visited by a family therapist named Rudy Rousseau.

Rudy was mainly set in place by my mother to help us children deal with all the terribly damaging things we’d experienced during our childhoods.

It was during one of Rudy’s family therapy sessions that I believe I first really thought of Craig as someone more than just a friend. I remember still living at our house at 32nd and DuPont Ave in South Minneapolis and standing in the kitchen  trying to explain to Rudy and my mother why I thought that I would one day be traveling the world. I told them that I wanted to see the different parts of the world because before I’d been to Greece I’d thought that the whole world was only what I was seeing in Edina, Minneapolis and St.Paul (occasionally). My Idea of a vacation at the time until going to Greece was the whole family piling into my mother’s dodge stratus and traveling to Chicago. I told my mom and Rudy that day while standing in that kitchen I especially wanted to visit my penpal and friend Craig who lived in Scotland. My little sister teasingly said “your boyfriend” and I went on and on about how Craig was ‘just a friend’. It is funny because to this day I can still remember the thoughts that were running through my mind…what if Craig was my boyfriend? If Craig isn’t my boyfriend why do I chat with him more than I did Jason? Why do we spend all night chatting about what feels like absolutely nothing and yet I feel so good being tired at school the next day? Why do I rush home to talk to Craig?

Rudy the family therapist is a person who I would consider a major father figure in my life. He encouraged me to go to Hamline and he has given me many speeches of wisdom over the past few years that have shown me that I should NEVER GIVE UP AS A SMART BLACK YOUNG WOMAN.

I remember him asking me: “If Craig isn’t your boyfriend, why are you blushing so much when we mention him?”…That’s when I knew and that’s when my goals and the way I talked to Craig first began changing. It changed from idol conversation to flirting. (Which I hope to cover a blog on later)

Anyway, The reason I share this is because therapy for me has helped me come to some of the most interesting and amazing discoveries that have helped shape my path toward a happy and stress free future.

Therapy was a place where I could focus on the good things in life and think about how I could make them better instead of dwelling on the bad things.

I’ve found healing in sharing my feelings with others confidentially and I discovered that I love being open and honest with people about how they make me feel and how I react to them.

If a person is bothering me I’ve found that because of therapy I’ve been able to voice my opinions to them in a appropriate and proper manner.

I don’t keep my feelings bottled up as much as I used to and I don’t become as depressed as I used to be because I get all of my feelings out and let them go.

Recently I’ve been going through a lot of problems physically, mentally and financially. I’ve been forced to move back home to my mother’s house after two years of living independent of rules made by a parental unit.

I’m not back in my childhood home because my family has moved from

>32nd & DuPont Ave South Minneapolis

to >1003 Olson Memorial Hwy North Minneapolis

to>6411 Olympia Street Golden Valley

to my families current address at >311 Penn Ave North Minneapolis

That makes the total amount of moves that my family has made in the last 3 years 4 moves in 3 years. Pretty much a move every summer three summers in a row during vital years of my development and educational transitions.

This is not including the moves I made personally from

Olympia Street to —> Camp in Annandale MN to —>My dorm room in St.Paul MN to —> Theta Chi Fraternity to —> 1901 Logan Ave Minneapolis MN back to a different home at —> 311 Penn Ave Mpls MN

meaning that I have to add four moves to the four moves I’d already made. Making 8 moves that I’ve made in 3 years. It is said that after 1 move a child can develop problems functioning…but after 8 a person can go Crazy.

Sadly this time around Rudy doesn’t come every week to give me and my family personal therapy. I see Rudy every once in a blue moon when my mother invites him over to talk to us kids about things that she knows she can’t talk to us personally about without creating more stress. Rudy being around for my family is like during circle time in elementary school and having the ‘talking ball’ Rudy is like the ball because when he is around people wait their turns and we are at peace with each other for a little while during the chaos. We respect each other.

This time around though since there was no Rudy I have found that I’ve needed to discover different outlets to get my feelings and emotions out…to tell MY SIDE OF THE STORY.

If you look at the title of this Blog which I have titled “Blogging Therapy” you can see that the main outlet I’ve discovered to help me vent and get things off my back has been my Blog. I use my blog like a journal and I share my thoughts and feelings. I know that unlike in therapy blogging is in no way confidential but, I feel that I want people to get to know the real honest me.

I think the blogging does all the same things that therapy does…it lets you have a place that is unbiased to talk about things and get them all cleared up in your head. It doesn’t rush you and it has no opinion for or against you. It simply lets you tell your side.

I like blogging better than therapy from a therapist sometimes because I feel that when I am typing my brain can keep up with what my mind is thinking. When I am trying to speak I think of brilliant things to say but they never come out the way I want them to because my mouth feels it can’t keep up with my brain. My voice online is often stronger than my voice in person..which many people have begun to learn and read about me.

I can type a heck of a story but ask me to tell you one and you’ll get a stuttering fool. Sometimes while I am typing I have trouble finding the right words like when I’m trying to communicate verbally but the problems are much fewer and farther between.

Blogs don’t talk back and give you advice…that can be a good thing and a bad thing. It is a good thing because sometimes I don’t want advice and I just want someone or ‘something’ to just sit and take the time to listen…and if on blog someone else happens to come across it and read it, there is always the option for them to leave me their opinions which I do value and take into consideration. It is bad because the opinions I may get on a blog are not often expert opinions and they may lead me astray but also sometimes I might want help with something and not get it.

Blogging can be bad because a therapist may tell you something that you don’t want to hear but that you NEED TO HEAR. When with blogging a person can pick and choose what advice they want to take…self advice is not always good advice.

Blogging helps me find a platform and yell from the virtual rooftops when at home I might be yelling but with all the noise no one is bound to hear my cries for help over their own yelping.

I can say anything that I want on a blog…even though I try to practice digression and even though there are a lot of things that I know I wouldn’t be able to share on my blog without seeking permission from other parties involved…I still free enough on my blog to talk about things I want and need to talk about. Just like in therapy when my therapist asks me: So, how has you life been and where is it taking you? What are you doing with your life that makes you sad, happy, confused, etc.?

I was sitting and look at my boyfriend’s blogs and my blogs and I’ve found blogs to be a positive medium…it is said that if you write it they will read it.

Even though my blogs are gigantic and often spiritual and highly technical I feel that anyone who took the time to read them could get to know me as a person and could get to know the way I think and look at life.

Blogging for me has become the new therapy that is calming me down and relieving my stress. I can rant and rave on my blog and it will do nothing but just sit there and store it all in. The Blog has become my Rudy and I don’t have to worry about how I will refresh my spirits, vent and heal.

LONG BLOG SHORT…BLOGGING IS THERAPEUTIC.

Day Dreaming

I’ve been thinking about Craig A LOT recently…maybe because I miss the consistency that having a phone to talk to him provided. While I was in college there was my dorm and the Library, Theta Chi had Matt’s Laptop and a phone, even my last place had a laptop computer with bad internet…but it was SOME INTERNET.

This place has internet yes, But the internet is terrible. This place has no phones and no freedom to talk about anything because of the constant linger of younger siblings who repeat things intimate I’ve said…who never forget anything!

So All I can do is hope that Craig is online when I am allowed to use the computer: Anytime that my siblings aren’t around…it reminds me of when Craig and I were 14 again with school and bedtimes, our mothers and fathers constantly nagging us to go to bed.

The lack of Craig has become an aching obsession for me. I can’t sleep without dreaming of him and I can’t close my eyes without his face being there. I can’t shop without thinking what he might want to be getting and I can’t watch television or a movie without thinking of what he would agree to watch with me or if he would also say that I think I or He relates to a character. I wonder what he’s doing and if he’s spending all his time thinking about how he’s going to get the money to come see me.

I ACTUALLY WISH WINTER AND CHRISTMAS WOULD COME! so I could see him again…I HATE THE WINTER!

So to fill my time and because I keep thinking of these scenarios anyway I have been thinking of ways that Craig and I might surprised each other when we see each other again…or what might happen when we do meet, whether it is him coming to me or me going there…they are ever present on my mind…so I am documenting them.

They might be a good feature of my wedding someday.

Just think of this scenario… Girl arrives at Boy’s Dorm, Girl finds boys room, girl knocks on boy’s flatmates door and asks if he can do her a favor, Flatmate then walks to boy’s door and knocks on it, flatmate complains that he is out of sugar, or that the TV won’t come on and flatmate asks for assistance in the Kitchen. While Boy and flatmate are gone the girl sneaks into the boys room and gets into his covers…boy returns and thinks he sees the lump in his bed but he also think his eyes are playing tricks on him. Boy wipes his eyes and pulls down the covers to reveal the girl laying in his bed. Boy freaks out and the girl pulls him into the covers to join her.
Reunion scenario #1

True Blessings

For the last 3 weeks I’ve been working my butt off for a family in the Kenwood Neighborhood who are filthy rich. The problem is that their money has seemed to corrupt the way they look at people and value people. They paid me next to nothing and expected me to do everything to perfection with no encouragement, incentive and constantly having them behind my back repeatedly telling me how to do things that I already knew how to do.

I wasn’t allowed to complain about the work I had to do because the first time I’d said anything about the work I’d been “told on” by the nanny.

Funny enough though, every time I usually shared with the nanny it was her who was asking me something.
After that I was told that I wasn’t allowed to socialize or talk to anyone during the hours that I was work…which was 8 hours a day 5 days a week…40 hours a week of not talking to anyone could drive a person crazy.

I was told that if I was caught complaining that I’d be fired.

Well I was supposed to be put in charge of the meals. I was happy about this part of my job because cooking is something I enjoy doing that I do very well. Yet, when I was constantly shadowed by the lady of the house Janel Goff (which is quite annoying, stressful, and hard to deal with) I asked her politely if since cooking was in my job description and because they’d given me that responsibility, I asked that she let me be in charge of making the food and I asked that she give me control in the kitchen when it was my time to cook, instead of her thinking that I am not doing things right instead of doing them her way.

Asking her this must have made her feel that I was trying to overrule her command because the next day Brian came to me and told me that he and Janel didn’t want me making meals anymore, and they had discussed it before they went to bed. They had decided to punish me by taking away the one thing that I enjoyed during the day.

When I worked on Labor Day while the rest of America’s working population was off, I asked for time and a half which was fitting. But, my employer Brian Goff told me that I couldn’t get it because the day I moved into my small 2 bedroom apt and still worked a half a day in the house, I’d been paid for a full day.

When I told Brian that I might want to take up an afternoon job because what he was paying me was so low, he told me…okay sure since you aren’t doing dinner now you can work till 5:30pm and start you babysitting in the afternoons. I didn’t know that the hour that he’d decided to let me off early for would cost be my 2nd daily break time.

I got off an hour earlier because I sacrificed my own free time…like when a teacher takes away minutes at recess.

I heard that Brian was the kind of man to play tricks like that, not paying people, overworking people, creating contracts that practically enslaved people.

The main reason I was settling at the Goff’s place for only 100$ a week…not including food costs was because I needed a place to stay and I was technically working off my living expenses by working for the family.

I was given my own place to live while I worked for the family, this place was supposed to be treated like an apartment away from the main house. “My own place” I was given a house mate who was also working for the Goff family, their gardener Louie.

The problems that I encountered with this living situation was that Brian felt that even during my break time he could come onto my side of the house and give me orders for what I should be doing later. When I felt that my break time was the only time I could escape from my servitude and relax…that became extremely stressful. Not only that but when I was on break, because the Goff’s didn’t care about anyone but their own selves they had neglected to fix anything in our part of the house…we didn’t have internet, cable, a separate phone line, and for about a week and a half our main plumbing in our kitchen didn’t work and our sinks were clogged. I spent most of my nights going to the local coffee shop with my housemate to go get internet.

One thing that I was extremely grateful of were my weekend off. This was a time that I spent living the life I would be living if I hadn’t been working all the time. I bathed weekends, went and read, went home to visit my mother, attended church and was about to refresh and reset myself and my spirits for the following week. The weekends became a time that the Goff would leave me alone and I would leave them alone. Even though more than once I was called and ‘ordered’ to do something on a Saturday morning.

I am  surprised that it was the acts of this past weekend that got me fired and evicted from the Goff household.

My friend Jimmy was being evicted from his home. I am Jimmy’s primary babysitter of his two small children Collin who is age 4 and Caylie who just turned 2 on Sept 11th. I’ve watched over Collin and Caylie so much since before Collin was even walking that I feel like I have a major hand in how they’ve been raised. They aren’t people i babysit for and get paid for. I watch Collin and Caylie for free because I consider them to be family and like my own children.

Every time I watch the Hines children they have stayed at my place of residence, my mom’s house, my dorm, my friend’s house. I can barely count on two hands how many times I’ve watched the children in their own home.

My mother had agreed to watch the children at Jimmy’s request which usually meant Jimmy would be dropping the children off for me to watch them at my mother house overnight, and have them join us while we attended church the following day. This particular time though my mother did not want to have the kids at her house, my brothers Tyler and Eric this past week had been extremely sick and running high fevers.

Since Collin and Caylie are so young and susceptible to illness and since I’d watched them millions of times before in my places of residence outside of my mother’s house, I agreed to watch the kids at my place. I believed fully that the Goffs would have no problem with who I decided to invite over to “my own” apt and how I would be spending my day off. As a matter of fact, to my understanding the Goff family was out of town in Boston, along with the family nanny Information that I had learned while cleaning an empty house everyday for the week that they were gone (During which time I unpacked and put away the families belongings {belongings that i had no clue where to put}… which they’d left in randomly packed boxes).

Saturday went well, I spent most of it shopping and hanging out running Errands with my mother and the kids. Saturday night the kids slept over after we had tomato soup for dinner, I gave the kids a bath and we watched Ratatouille.

Sunday morning I got the kids dressed for church, fed them cereal for breakfast and got them ready to be picked up by my mother to go to church.

It was while we were standing in the driveway waiting for my mother to pull up that all the drama started Janel…attitude flaring came out of my door and Asked me in a yelling strict tone if I’d been watching kids overnight in “her house”. I said no, I’d been watching kids in my apt. And she says, you aren’t supposed to be allowed to watch children in my house. Then she stormed inside. I continued to wait for my mother in the driveway and  understood the memo that Janel had left as a warning for the future not to watch children at my own place.

Then Brian  stuck his head out the door and told me to come inside because he needed to “talk to me” he was speaking in his official scolding voice like he had when he’d told me that if I complained again I would be fired. I was thinking that maybe he had something to show me that I’d left undone from the previous week. Instead he asked me why I was watching children and i told him who they were and the situation about my mother and the eviction and how Collin and Caylie were my Godchildren and family and how it was my day off and I didn’t think it would be that big of a deal.

Everything that happened after that was a big blur…I remember Janel coming and joining Brian as they both yelled at me…and I remember janel slapping her hand and palm together threateningly and I remember telling them that I didn’t know they didn’t want me having anyone over EVER. And I remember Janel saying that she didn’t think I was “happy here” and that things just “weren’t working out” and that she thought I was a liar and that she thought that I had been bringing a lot of people over which made it seem like I was having parties. I told them honestly that I didn’t know anything about their policies and that I wasn’t lying and that I was being 100% honest like I try to be all the time.

At one point as I was explaining to Brian why I couldn’t watch the children my my mom’s place she told me that she didn’t want to be “associated with  people like Collin and Caylie’s parents” or “associated with the people I would be bringing around her house” and it made me feel like whoever I would be bringing around would be bringing with them the disease of being unfortunate and less wealthy and that maybe them being around would bring down her family’s good image.

WHAT A BITCH. It was just then that I began crying and telling them that Collin and Caylie were family…if They didn’t want to be associated with ‘those people’ then what was I for being just like them?!

It was my day off and I was not their slave. Brian hearing what his wife was saying tried to correct and take back her words by saying that it was a liability issue…I could understand liability but the words had been said and the REAL Issue was already out to be addressed.

THE WHOLE THING WAS AN ISSUE OF CLASS STATUS.

Rich vs Poor …Face and Self  Worth. I was poor and they were rich and I was paid to serve them.

Brian told me he wanted me out by Wednesday…I told him that I had no where else to go through my tears and I thought that the whole thing was ridiculous because they’d never told me I couldn’t have anyone over.

Since I was hysterical and confused Collin tried to defend me…he kept saying “Brian, Janel…we were just trying to take a nap” and “Janel, why are you being so angry?” and “Corinne, why are you crying like a baby?” I felt terrible because I wanted to run away. I’d never been teamed up on and yelled at by such rude and heartless people.

the children are 2 and 4…what kind of threat do they make?!

I told them that it was all too much for me and that I needed to get to church…Brian said that they’d give me a week and that they’d see where we sat at the end of the next week because he realized that I had dirt against him and his family now that he didn’t want me to share with the world at risk of ruining their perfect image…opps.

I went out to the driveway again still crying and hoping that my mom would show up soon…she was already a half an hour late.

Collin and Caylie were both really upset and crying too because they’d been standing during all the yelling the whole time.

Brian came back outside and told me he didn’t want me waiting for my mother in his driveway and that he wanted me to wait inside for my mother…wait inside and be invisible like all good servants are…I kept thinking to myself. Was I fired? What was going on? Why were they so evil?

I ended up going upstairs to try to call my mom and see where she was it was then that Louie came out to the hallway with the intention to walk his dog Chip. I felt terrible and he asked me what was going on. Louie could barely understand or hear me because he had trouble with his hearing. That was one of the reasons Why I felt so alone during the whole situation…there was no one to be on my side and defend me because Louie was upstairs and couldn’t hear and Collin was just 4 and Caylie was crying and my mom wasn’t around yet.

It was so hard trying to explain the situation through my tears to Louie until finally I hear my mom pull up and told Louie I had to go.

I walked out to the car crying hysterically and my mom saw me and asked already with defenses up what was going on…I tried to tell her and she told me that I should be happy…I felt so hurt and damaged inside because of the way and what Brian and Janel had been saying to me.

Money has Corrupted their hearts to the point where they are not humanly good but simply selfish and rude.

My mom gave me tough love all through church and my crying got so bad that I had to sit out of singing and I had to calm down by watching Collin in the playroom during the service. It was a relief when I finally got to talk to Craig after church and try to explain everything because he made me smile the way he always does. I was kind of in shock and I didn’t want to go back to the house Sunday afternoon. So my mom took me and the kids to the park at Kenwood. It gave me time to think and I was convinced that I needed to get out of that environment as soon as possible…mom took Collin and Caylie from me, instructed me to pack and Jimmy and Sheena Collin and Caylie’s parents came by to help me move everything. They’d finished their unpacking and still had the trailer that they’d been using. I’d tried to explain the situation to them and it only took me telling them that it was my babysitting the kids that started it all that made them hate the Goff’s spirit.

The Goffs are heartless, selfless and arrogant  I have never met anybody like them before and I pray to never encounter or have to work for people Like them ever again.

The Hines helped me move all my things out of the apt and over to my mom’s house. I moved everything into my mom’s house with help of my sister and my mom’s neighbor John. It was 10:30pm when we finished and I looked almost dead from all my exhaustion…I took a shower and joined my mom and CJ as they watched “the state of Play” in the livingroom.

I then went to bed, waking every now and then thinking that I was back in the apartment and that I might have something I still need to get done…work. I thought of all the things I’d left behind and decided to go back to the apartment later today with my mother in tow for support.

I am going to ask for my last week’s check and one weeks severance pay…a total of 200$ I plan to hold my house key hostage until they pay me what they owe me.

And I plan to empty out my fridge.

My mom has set up for me to move into a house with her friend Rhonda and I’m looking for another job. For now I am living at home until Rhonda and I have a meeting to determine my rent. I am happy to have my mother to support me along with many others.

I am truly blessed… At first I thought that my finding a job and a place to live would be my ultimate blessing but now that everything has come crashing down I realize that my moral is that family will always come first and that a little bit of change…can be good.