Sometimes I forget

That there are memories that are worth holding onto. I’m lucky that in my boyfriend’s life I am the first.  I have no one to compete with that I know of. I was just watching the movie Little Black Book and I also watched Muriel’s Wedding (whose main character freakishly reminded me of me!) and I realized that there are memories that I have to hold onto that not many others can say that they have.

>I’ve had more than 6 men say that they have feelings for me.(and out of those 6 I’ve dated 3)

>I’ve been called a catch (by many people who weren’t paid or obligated to)

>I’ve been given the opportunities to succeed in life (which I thank God for daily but take for grated)

>I’ve met many many many amazing people along the way (many who have not been surrounded with the same kind of support base)

>I’ve been an individual who has been seen to others as being overly forgiving and a “social butterfly”(even though I feel alone most of the time)

>I’ve been seen to show potential as a great leader and I’ve been told such by my peers and bosses over the past year

>I’ve been let down and FIRED strange as it may sound (and under false pretenses)

>I’ve been in the lowest conditions a child could be in (food shelves and homeless)

>I’m the poster child of success for many people who are trying to tell a sob story about how their lives were terrible and their childhoods hard

>I am the statistic who CAN and Probably WILL make it in my cultural community

>I’ve been out of the country multiple times even though there was no chance for my being able to afford such luxuries

>I’ve grown up around great people and my family is still made up of Great people.

>I’ve fallen in love, and out of love and in love again…and I have an idea of where I’m going (though most of the time I feel lost)

>I am pretty (sometimes, even though all I see when I look in the mirror is a cow)

>I am dumb (But I am most of the time much smarter)

>I know inner beauty (and I know how to tell when people are being shallow and who I should and should not befriend)

>I have created something new for myself

and even though I whine and fuss and I’m annoying sometimes I know that I can always go back to the people I trust and know that they will have my back.

I only wish I had more people I could thank for these life lessons and memories.

I’m really confused

[4:59:01 PM] Corinne Salone: hey
[4:59:04 PM] Corinne Salone: I’m here
Craig McCreath
[4:59:48 PM] *** Call from Craig McCreath, duration 1:04:44. ***
[5:00:06 PM] Corinne Salone: why did you send me a video call
[5:00:21 PM] Corinne Salone: ok
[5:00:33 PM] Corinne Salone: brb
[5:00:39 PM] Corinne Salone: people in roo,
[5:00:40 PM] Corinne Salone: m
[5:00:45 PM] Corinne Salone: gtting earphones
[5:00:47 PM] Corinne Salone: cool
[5:00:50 PM] Craig McCreath: ok
[5:03:11 PM] Corinne Salone: hello?
[5:03:26 PM] Craig McCreath: I’m here…
[5:03:28 PM] Corinne Salone: are you talking?
[5:03:29 PM] Craig McCreath: I’m talking…
[5:03:33 PM] Craig McCreath: you’re just not answering.
[5:09:32 PM] Corinne Salone: why do boys always think they have the best soluation to every problem
[5:09:50 PM] Craig McCreath: Well, nobody ever does (except me)
[5:28:21 PM] Corinne Salone: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=189QSTKC5no
[5:34:21 PM] Corinne Salone: hmm?
[5:35:15 PM] Craig McCreath: as I was saying, it’s not like I’m going to go and get you depressed about how my mum is currently drinking half a bottle of vodka a night… and won’t even do menial tasks during the day… do I?
[5:35:47 PM] Craig McCreath: plus, i send you emails days ago and don’t even hear a response…
[5:36:26 PM] Craig McCreath: For ages, since you werent online, i thought you were ignoring me! How do you think that make me feel? Correct, like shit.
[5:36:37 PM] Corinne Salone: i have no computer
[5:37:15 PM] Craig McCreath: but during this time you were still plurking. It wasn’t like you weren’t online! ARRRRGGGH.
[5:39:16 PM] Corinne Salone: hello?
[5:39:48 PM] Corinne Salone: hey there mr
[5:52:13 PM] Corinne Salone: what?
[5:53:25 PM] Corinne Salone: what are you looking for me say?
[5:56:25 PM] Craig McCreath: Hell, I’d just like you to be you… right now you seem interested in other things… I want to talk… TO YOU. But you seem interested in other things more that mean you change. To me you seem snarky and insensitive to the fun, emotional and caring Corinne I know. The Corinne I know would get alone so we could actually talk and catch up, but I guess you’re too involved looking at zombies.
[5:59:19 PM] Corinne Salone: how exactly do you wanna atch up with me?
[5:59:26 PM] Corinne Salone: catch
[6:00:48 PM] Craig McCreath: I’m putting up my wall… we’re not having an argument… you’re just not getting a point.
[6:01:03 PM] Corinne Salone: what’s the point
[6:02:25 PM] Craig McCreath: For someone who notices change in people’s personalities, you’re changing in front of these guys… I’m not liking the snarky person I see and I know that if I get to talk to you the way you usually are I can enjoy who I really want to talk to.
[6:04:35 PM] *** Call ended ***

My Thesis

The protection of a moral ethical code is important in the preservation of an ethical system of rule making, by creating their own moral judgments about what is important in the Bible; through following the house rules developed in the oikonmia, the Eastern Orthodox church created room for the creation of their own ethical system. That made it possible to break the ethical rules developed by the Christian Holy Bible.

An ethical decision is made based on what a person believes and values. Ethics itself is the discipline of dealing with what is good and bad with moral duty and obligation. When a person is defining their own ethics they establish a set of moral principles. Moral principles are a system of moral values. In the Christian religion ethical decisions are made based on the beliefs that are established to follow the teachings, scripture, and tradition of Jesus Christ the son of God.

Within Christianity a set of moral principles was created called the Oikonomia. The Oikonomia was a set of rules that was established by the Eastern Orthodox and Greek-Catholic churches in order to manage the pastoral ecclesiastical economy as well as to enforce what is known as God’s divine economy.

The Oikonomia otherwise known as the “household rules” are based on the teachings of the Christian holy bible. They are referred to when the church needs to make decisions and wants to do them in a way that honors their beliefs in Christianity. What the Oikonomia says is considered authoritative and when it is used in writing the word begins to be used in place of saying ‘this is the word of God’ or ‘this is what God has willed for his people’. Christians in the Eastern Orthodox and Greek-Catholic churches believe that what is said by God becomes divine right and morally good in accordance to the Divine Command theory. The divine command theory is the meta ethical view which claims that ethical sentences express propositions, some such propositions are true. And that those propositions that are the attitudes of God are morally good.

The teachings of the Oikonomia influenced theologians and writers in the Christian Church. Leaders of the church were given the responsibility of enforcing the rules of the Oikonomia and being the final decision makers on how the rules would be used correctly. These rules referred to everything including the management of the church and it’s economic issues.

The ethical issues that arose from giving the clergy such a responsibility of the household rules was that they had the ability to change the rules in a way in order to benefit the church. The church had a lot of power in the government and any decisions that the church leaders made influenced their power. An expansion of the church would create more power for those in charge of the church.

The enforcers of the Oikonomia’s house rules felt that some of the rules should be enforced more than others for the betterment of the power of the church. The favoritism of some of the bible’s rules over others is an important factor in determining which of the rules should be considered morally good and therefore worthy of being followed ethically. Yet the Oikonomia did not show favoritism and was considered a fair and just method of determining what decisions a Christian should make. The knowledge of which of the bible and the Oikonomia’s morally ethical rules are considered wrong and sins and the continued misuse of them is considered a sin in the christian faith.

The ethical situations in which clergy managed the church in a way that broke the christian commandments were wrong because they became sinful against God. Claiming that an act is good because it was from God became the same as claiming that the act was good because it was from the Oikonomia and enforced by the church leaders. The leaders of the church were the only people educated in the Oikonomia enough to be able to understand what rules could be broken. They decided to use their control over the household rules to expand their power in a way that helped themselves get more power by using God’s name in vein. Using God’s name in vein is one example of a sin in the christian faith and the church did just that when they decided to send men out purposely to kill in God’s holy name.

The Christian crusades were a great example of the Christians focusing on some of the rules established in the Oikonomia and neglecting others. The sixth commandment reads, “Thou shall not kill.” The New international Version of the bible translates it to, “Thou shall not murder.” The Bible later states that neither accidental killing can be made nor justifiable homicide in Numbers 35:22-25 and Exodus 22:2.

The leaders of the Eastern Orthodox and Greek-Catholic Churches allowed the crusades to happen on the justification that they were for the betterment of Christians and mankind through the works of the church. For example in March 1095, at the Council of Piacenza, Pope Urban II received a plea for help from the Byzantine emperor Alixius I. Alexius needed help to repel the advance of the Seljuk Turks that had already taken much Byzantine territory in Asia Minor and were getting closer and closer to Constantinople. Alexius chose to ask help, not from the individual monarchs of western Europe, but from the head of the western Christian Church who, arguably, had domain over all of the western political influential decision making monarchs.

Urban saw this plea as presenting a wonderful opportunity to progress his own personal career. There had been a schism that had deeply divided the Orthodox Greek Church and the Latin Catholic Church since 1054. Urban saw the chance to heal the schism and hopefully become a powerful leader of both churches.
There was an opportunity to extend the crusade campaign to take the Holy City of Jerusalem into Christian hands. In order to gain support of his cause, Urban discussed the matter at the Council of Clermont in early November 1095, and then again on the 27th of November, he preached the crusade.

No record survives of Urban’s actual words in his call for an armed campaign to Jerusalem, but chronicles that were written after the event often show that he indulged in blatant propaganda. He claimed that the Muslims that ruled Jerusalem were maltreating Christians most horrifically, which was untrue.
His lies against the Muslim empire led many European men to kill and be killed in the crusades. He envisioned the First Crusade as the key to healing the schism within the church also  he saw that it had the potential to put him at the head of all the Christian domain. Aiding to the Byzantine emperor became a side show.
Urban said that he had “just cause” in order to take back something that had been stolen from the christian church such as Jerusalem.

The church used the Oikonomia to justify their actions in killing  because they claimed to have the “right intentions.” The fighting could stop people sinning and create more followers of God. In the case of the Muslims, this was achieved by killing them, so they could sin no more. The act had all the legitimate authority when it was approved by the Church, because it was assumed that the act was going in accordance to the Oikonomia. The pope ‘after having already consulted what he knew of the household rules’ then gave his permission. The crusaders took Jerusalem on 15 July 1099, but Urban died about two weeks before the news reached western Europe.

The crusades were a sort of spiritual genocide, a genocide being the deliberate and systematic destruction, in whole or in part, of an ethnic, racial, religious, or national group. Because the crusaders were focusing on making war on members of non-Christian areas and Muslims in particular they were in fact committing genocide.

The power that the members of the church were gaining became the main focus of the acts. Church leaders justified their permittivity of the sinful act of killing during the crusades by saying that the Oikonomia (or rather ‘what God has willed’) supports the church and therefore would support the deaths of thousands of people.

Church leaders who were responsible for protecting and preserving the rules of the Oikonomia (which were also the rules of the holy bible) forsook the rules in order to benefit themselves.

The Church created its own spiritual act which is an act concerning not the body but the soul that Christians believe will be able to enter heaven or hell after a person’s death. The spiritual act that they created concerned the forgiveness of a Christian soldier who was sent out to kill in the name of God by the church.  The people who killed could be forgiven and set aside their sins and become born again through the church in the name of God.

They called this act of acknowledgment  and forgiveness of sin repentance. The members of the church did not abide by the divine command theory that God says is always good. Living by what Jesus Christ named the first and most important commandment that God had established for Christian followers to obey. The law in the Christian religion known as the law of love or the Golden rule. The law od love was first established in Matthew 22:36-39 when Jesus was ask of a follower:

Matthew 22:36-39 (New International Version)

36“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” 37Jesus replied: ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’

If the followers of the oikonmia or the rules established by the Eastern orthodox and Greek-Catholic churches to mangagement the divine and ecclesiastical economy had followed God’s household and divine rules for their economy they would have understood that loving your neighbor as yourself would transcend into that of God loving all people of any religion.

They would have learned that God’s commandments should never be neglected for the betterment of the church. Murder is murder regardless of the method of forgiveness. The members of the church may have been justified because Jesus said that all who go in his name, and commit good acts in teh name of his God could be saved and could have their sins washed away. Following God’s commandments should be the first and foremost rule when following the oikonomia and its law of enforcement and wise instruction for the economy.

Foods: I’m surprised how many of these I’ve had.

  1. Natto
  2. Green Smoothie
  3. Tofu Scramble
  4. Haggis
  5. Mangosteen
  6. Creme brulee
  7. Fondue
  8. Marmite/Vegemite
  9. Borscht
  10. aba ghanoush
  11. Nachos
  12. Authentic soba noodles
  13. PB&J sandwich
  14. Aloo gobi
  15. Taco from a street cart
  16. Boba Tea
  17. Black truffle
  18. Fruit wine made from something other than grapes
  19. Gyoza
  20. Vanilla ice cream
  21. Heirloom tomatoes
  22. Fresh wild berries
  23. Ceviche
  24. Rice and beans
  25. Knish
  26. Raw scotch bonnet pepper
  27. Dulce de leche
  28. Caviar
  29. Baklava
  30. Pate
  31. Wasabi peas
  32. Chowder in a sourdough bowl
  33. Mango lassi
  34. Sauerkraut
  35. Root beer float
  36. Mulled cider
  37. Scones with buttery spread and jam
  38. Vodka jelly
  39. Gumbo
  40. Fast food french fries
  41. Raw Brownies
  42. Fresh Garbanzo Beans
  43. Dahl
  44. Homemade Soymilk
  45. Wine from a bottle worth £60/$120 or more
  46. Stroopwafle
  47. Samosas
  48. Vegetable Sushi
  49. Glazed doughnut
  50. Seaweed
  51. Prickly pear
  52. Umeboshi
  53. Tofurkey
  54. Sheese
  55. Cotton candy
  56. Gnocchi
  57. Piña colada
  58. Birch beer
  59. Scrapple
  60. Carob chips
  61. S’mores
  62. Soy curls
  63. Chickpea cutlets
  64. Curry
  65. Durian
  66. Homemade Sausages
  67. Churros, elephant ears, or funnel cake
  68. Smoked tofu
  69. Fried plantain
  70. Mochi
  71. Gazpacho
  72. Warm chocolate chip cookies
  73. Absinthe
  74. Corn on the cob (favorite)
  75. Whipped cream, straight from the can (Hell yes…and off someone’s stomach!)
  76. Pomegranate
  77. Fauxstess Cupcake
  78. Mashed potatoes with gravy
  79. Jerky
  80. Croissants
  81. French onion soup
  82. Savory crepes
  83. Tings
  84. A meal at Candle 79
  85. Moussaka
  86. Sprouted grains or seeds
  87. Macaroni and “cheese”
  88. Flowers
  89. Matzoh ball soup
  90. White chocolate
  91. Seitan
  92. Kimchi
  93. Butterscotch chips
  94. Yellow watermelon
  95. Chili with chocolate
  96. Bagel and Tofutti
  97. Potato milk
  98. Polenta
  99. Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee
  100. Raw cookie dough

Personal isn’t always as personal as one thinks

It’s really strange when you think something is private and you keep it to yourself and don’t let it out until you feel ready. But when it comes out by force you feel embarrassed and used and vulnerable.

I need to get this information out though I know it might bite me in the butt later.

 

I recently misplaced a USB drive in a lab that i had been working in the other night. On the USB drive were some really personal pictures that I had taken while on my trip to Scotland. When I had been studying and working on the Delta Tau Yearbook I would not have brought the drive out but I was looking to save the yearbook to transfer and print out later but I didn’t have enough room on the Normal USB drive. I ended up bringing out my other drive. I was in the computer lab till 5am when the computers reset and then I went to bed not realizing that I’d left my USB drive hooked up to the computer with the DT yearbook and the Pictures on it.

Earlier this morning I was going to work on the yearbook and I looked for my bag for the drive but it wasn’t there. That was around 9am I assumed that I must have put it into the skirt I had been wearing and I just left it for later…but I had a really strange feeling that something was wrong at 11 (6 hours after I’d left the drive in the lab) I went to the lab to go see if I’d left it…nothing was there so I was even more sure that I’d taken it and left it in my dorm room. So felt better and I went on to take my Schools and Societies final and then I went off to work.

While at work I was pulled over by a random man I don’t know and he told me that he’d been in the lab and seen some boys looking at my personal pictures. He told me that he had lied to the boys and told them that I was his sister to get the USB drive back from them.

Crazy enough it worked. When the man told me he also told me that he didn’t have the drive with him at the time but that he’d get it back to me as soon as possible. The man said that “my shit was tight”

So I know where my drive is but I don’t have it back yet. Jacque my co-worker who I confided in says that he thinks the guy is lying about getting the drive from a group of boys because I was getting worried about who the boys might be who saw my pictures.

Jacque says he thinks the guy discovered the pictures himself and that he thinks in order for me to get them back that I’ll have to do some kind of a sexual favor for the man. I said I would never.

But now that I know who has the drive and that I’ve seen him numerous times today i feel that it is only a matter of time before these pictures may be seen by the old man’s perverted friends.

personal is not always personal…I should have deleted the pictures when I got them.

I found this Quiz on Craig’s Portal about Personalities

You are a Self-Knowing Extroverted Builder

1.30% of the 145585 people who have taken this quiz are like you.

I think it is kind of accurate